The passing of a great woman

This morning when I reached Masjid Jamek LRT station, I rushed to get The Sun as usual. But today's headline Benazir Killed grabbed my attention. I was so shocked & disbelieved by what I read. Just a few days ago I watched news on TV showing Benazir Bhutto giving speech to her supporters. Then, she said she wasnt afraid of the threats around her. Nothing can stop her from achieving her dream to see Pakistan become a democratic country again. She was a very brave & bold woman. And now she is gone. I'm not going into details about this unmerciful killings. I feel angry & sad everytime I read news about killings, bombing & all the stupid human actions which leads to devastation for mankind. Is the world a safe place to live? Yes, I believe so. Only if cruelty is stopped. But can cruelty be stopped? No, I dont think so. And I dont know how to explain. Al-Fathihah for Benazir Bhutto. May Allah bless her soul. AMIN.

The Rain, The Crowd & MCR

Yesterday I went to watch MCR concert wif my hubby & my lil sis Maia. Maia was restless when I wasnt ready by 5. She was worried sick if the road would be jammed. She was right. We all ikut Jalan Bangsar, & trafik jam quite bad. Rupanye ade polis road block..dari 4 lanes jadi 1 lane. Lately ni slalu ade road block for KL bound during weekend. Hampeh. Finally, we all reached Stadium Merdeka by 6.30. Parking was easy. But it was a dissapointment during lining up at the entrance gate. Gate punyela cinonet tapi yg nak masuk punyela ramai. Sabajelah,,mase tu da dgr One Buck Short buat opening. Bila da dpt masuk,,Pop Shuvit plak wat performance. My hubby & Maia pegi solat Maghrib (konsert konsert jugak,,solat jgn tinggal beb)..& Maia told me dia sorang je pompuan (she's just 15) yg solat kat surau. And the worst part is,,surau lelaki kunci,,then lelaki semua tumpang surau pompuan (stupid betul mgmt Stadium Merdeka,,da tau ade big event,,,bukala pintu surau tu). Btw, Pop Shuvit performed brilliantly. Bangga kejap ade local act yg mampu main muzik hebat cam depa..boleh get even wif Linkin Park. MCR only appeared around 8.30,,kira awal jugak start, but earlier the better sbb dpt balik awal! Mase tu da hujan renyai2,,so u can see my pix below wrapped in free baju hujan. Ok,,since I'm not a big fan of MCR,,I didnt really pay attention to their songs except the ones that I'm familiar wif..adelah 4-5 je yg aku layan..so bila ade lagu yg aku x penah dgr,,,aku pandang blank je kat stage,,pastu kejap2 pandang langit sambil pikir bila la hujan nk berenti. The crowd went wild when fast songs like Helena & Black Parade were performed. Aku ade nyanyi la skit2,,tang mana yg aku ingat part chorus. My hubby pon buka2 gak mulut dia nyanyi skali,,padahal susah gile nk dgr dia nyanyi kalu dipaksa. Overall, the consert was OK, except for certain songs where Gerard Way's vocal was a bit overshadowed by the loud instruments. The concert was done in about 90 mins. As usual la,,laungan "We Want More" kedengaran bila end of the concert. Tapi MCR really gone backstage for good. Sempat bergambar jap wif the stage background (X dpt ngan MCR,,ngan stage pon jadilah). It was sucky during time nak balik,,jem la. Perut plak masuk angin coz x mkn properly. Ok,,that's it,,the end of the story of "The Rain, The Crowd & MCR".(Ending x cun)

She didnt invite me for God's sake!

This is not a word that came out from my mouth nor anything catapult into my mind. This is just a remark from a friend's reaction when she found out that I didnt invite her to my wedding. Yes, I felt guilty about this. Ok, let me just clarify; my parents paid for the reception at the hotel & I was given a quota of 100 friends to invite. Is that a big number or what? For those who have so many friends & gangs, they would probably have a headache big time to identify which friend should they invite. I also had dilemma when I list down all my friends. Not forgetting to multiply by 2 for married couples. I have friends ranging from primary to secondary school, university, ex-company & current one. So, imagine that I've to take out the names & cut down the list till only 100 ppl left. But, at the same time, I did invite some old friends that I bumped into in Subang Jaya, although it was last minute. I said sorry coz no cards anymore & I seriously invited them face to face & again, SMSed them.

Trust me, if the wedding is 100% financed by me, I would have invited every single friends that I have known in my life. So, please dont ever think that I've forgotten u guys just because I didnt invite u to my wedding. When I came back from honeymoon, some sporting officemates that I didnt invite wished me congrats, or even asked me how was the wedding. I couldnt help myself from feeling so guilty & felt like wanna run into hidding. Some also were being so nice congratulated me in Friendster. Imagine that I didnt even invite my MD! But there were also some ppl in the officemate spontaneously said "She's married? When? Didnt know lah" infront of me as I passed by. What else can I do?

From the bottom of my heart, I sincerely wanna apologise to all the uninvited ones. There are always reasons behind any incidents. And this time, my reason is so reasonable but only those who understand would accept it.

Not a big fan of MCR but...

My sista Maia is a MCR fanatic fan, so giler smpi dia sanggup sms my hubby ajak pi konsert MCR without asking me FIRST! Hmm,,,da pandai budak kecik sorang ni ye,,tanya abg ipar dia dulu,,coz kebetulan hubby pon layan MCR. It all started on last Saturday morning,,when both of us were having breakfast near my office. Hubby showed me an sms from Maia, asking him whether to watch MCR in concert. Then, I asked hubby to reply by saying he would only go if Maia would buy him the ticket. Not long after that, I got an sms from her,saying that she really want to watch MCR & was hoping me & hubby would join, or else dad would dissaprove. Aku mase budak high school manade pi konsert,,takat tgk free konsert kat shopping mall adelar..konsert Sudirman penahla gi tapi parents yg bawa. Then bila da abis Uni,,barulah dpt pi konsert Dewa & Peterpan. After a short discussion wif hubby, we decided to do a little favour for Maia by becoming her guardian at the concert, which came with a price! I told her to buy the cheapest ticket which is RM103 (mahal wooo!!!). Now her dream to watch MCR live is one step away. The date is in Dec (x ingat). While Maia is absolutely counting the days, me & hubby was less than amused. I found MCR songs are way too noisy for my taste. Perhaps if I am in her shoes, I would be just like her.

Lagu Baru Dewa 19

Baru2 ni terdgr lagu latest from Dewa 19..or was it from Ahmad Dhani? Ngak sure..tapi yg pasti lagu ni mmg ada agenda tertentu nak attract org Mesia dgr lagu ni..pemuzik Mesia,, bila lagi nak wat lagu bertajuk seakan mcm ni? Awekku org Indonesia / Antara KL dan Jakarta / Tunggu aku di Bandung..hmmmmmmmm

Dewa 19 - Cintaku Tertinggal Di Malaysia

Tak pernah ku sangka

Jauh dari kamu

Membuat aku menderita

Sejak pertama bertemu denganmu

Di negara mu yang indah
Aku di sini mengenang kamu

Meski aku tak lagi sendiri

Ku mulai fikir tuk tinggalkan

Kekasihku di Jakarta
*Duhai kekasihku

Cintaku tertinggal di Malaysia

Haruskah ku kembali untuk bersamamu

Duhai kekasihku

Haruskah ku tinggalkan semuanya yang ku miliki

Untuk hidup bersamamu
Mungkinkah kamu cinta terakhirku

Mungkinkah kamu cinta matiku

Ku mulai berfikir untuk tinggalkan

Kekasihku di Jakarta
Repeat *
Untuk ku serahkan hidupku

Untuk ku serahkan matiku
Berilah aku satu

Keyakinan untuk..

Kekuatan untuk..

Kesungguhan untuk..

Bisa tinggalkan semua untukmu..

1st Raya ever wif hubby

The picture above was taken on 1st Syawal. It was my 1st Raya ever wif my hubby & my in-laws. Tahun ni 1st day kat USJ. My parents & adik2 semua balik Melaka beraya. Pas solat raya kat masjid, balik umah family hubby & bersalam-salaman & bergambar. Then pi umah Tok Wan kat SS19. Situ all my hubby's uncles & aunts berkumpul beraya. I could say that it was all about eat drink & be merry affair on that day. I ate in moderation, coz I had stomach ache due to 'angin'. 2nd day Raya around 7.45am me & hubby balik Melaka. Nasib baik highway x jam. Hubby bw kete mcm F1,,I saw a speed trap along the way..so kira nasib aa kalo bulan depan hubby dpt surat cinta. Sampai je Melaka,,rehat kejap makan2..,then pi Segamat beraya wif my family semua. Since my grandparents da passed away,,we all just visited the grave & also my close relatives' houses. We didnt sleep there, & late in the evening around 6pm, we rushed back to Melaka to catch up a big feast at my grandma's. Then main mercun tu..sapa lagi kalo bukan my hubby jadi ketua. Tapi my hubby tak kasi budak2 kecik (my small cousins & anak sepupu) pegang mercun sbb depa main buta2 baling kat org. Aku da warning hubby siapa among budak2 tu yg main mcm pengganas. Last2 budak2 tu give up & blah,,dptlah yg da dewasa2 ni main mercun dgn aman. We went back to KL the next day in the evening. Smpt singgah Seremban visit umah member hubby. It is a fun Raya, celebrating wif my dear hubby means alot to me. Oppss..gotta back to work! Cheers!

Eidul Fitri

I'm working today. Bosannyer! Aku amik 1 hari je cuti Selasa depan. Cuti annual tinggal 3 hari je & aku plan nak habiskan cuti Disember nanti. I came to work wearing jeans, selamba bomba je. Smlm my bos kata nak kasi we all balik awal b4 12pm. We (the girls) were so excited. Alih2 ari ni,,buka emel,,HR bos kata no early release & can only go back during lunch time. Arghhhh! Tensi jer. I'm not in working mood. Esok Raya. My hubby & I havent pack our clothes yet. Kain baju bertimbun lom berlipat lagi. Luckily our house is in perfect order. Ptg kang x sure buka kat mane, but I'm not going to cook. Rasanye pasar ramadhan pon x byk org menjual. My parents balik Melaka this morning, & I'll be celebrating 1st day Raya in USJ (my in-laws). 2nd day Raya baru balik & tido kat Melaka & a day trip visit to Segamat. I'm so happy that my hubby is such a sporting husband. Xde gaduh2 or making rules where to balik kampung. Maybe coz Melaka is not so far, plus my hubby's grandpa, aunts & uncles mostly are staying in Subang Jaya & USJ. Tomorrow I'm going to wear a peach coloured baju kurung, sedondon wif my hubby's. Dia pakai baju melayu kahwin aritu. I'm looking fwd to celebrate Raya wif my hubby as it will be the 1st time ever. Last but not least, the delightful Kelantanese dishes that my mom in-law will cook for the Raya feast. With that..Selamat Hari Raya, Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir Batin!

The space doctor - Malaysia's newly found Hero!

Last nite, like other millions of patriotic Malaysians, I witnessed one of the most historic moment in Malaysian history, where Dr Sheikh Muszaphar (DSM) became the first Malaysian astronaut to be launced to the wide open space. We watched Tv3 for the exclusive live telecast. I hold my hubby's hand tightly as we watched the rocket slowly took off. Aku plak tetiba rasa nervous, & kept on praying that no accident would happened. Bila tengok camne rocket tu naik keatas rasa macam tak percaya ada sorang rakyat Malaysia dalam tu. Then, ada tunjuk imej para angkasawan dlm rocket, & DSM looked a bit nervous. Yelah,,sapa x nervous kan for first timers. I bet the other two experienced astronauts must have encountered the same feeling during their first time launching. My nervous only dissapeared about 15 mins later after the rocket had been launched. Praise to Allah, Soyuz TMA-11 safely entered into the orbit when I saw the floating pen inside the rocket. I cant hide my admiration towards DSM for his enormous feat. But dont forget Capt. Dr Faiz Khaled, the ATM dentist who also managed to be the back-up astronaut. He also deserves a credit for his determination. Few days before, I asked Maia, my younger sis about which one of these two lads deserve the spot. She choosed DSM. Why? I guessed many teenage girls would agree with this - coz he's handsome! Ahahaha..I used to be like that too..go for looks!

Info on DSM (thanks to Wikipedia)

DOB: 27 July 1972

POB: KL

School: MRSM Muar

Higher Edu: Kasturba Medical College, Manipal

Qualification: Orthopedic physician

Past working experience: Lecturer in medic at HUKM

Extra: Part-time model, businessman (he operates Rest Rebung with a partner)

So boys & girls,,better study smart & balance your life to become succesful like DSM. A perfect role model for all Malaysians!

Ok, gotta back to work. Semoga DSM selamat pulang ke bumi. Esok keje half-day..then aku nak pi merayap shopping last minit. Till now....

Siapa Ini???

~ I'm not in hiding! ~

Just Engaged!!!

Finally, aku dgn rasminya menjadi tunangan orang, to be more specific, I'm now engaged to Hafez Ahmad Hamidi. Majlis diadakan pada 3 September 2006. Rombongan Hafez sampai few minutes b4 12pm as scheduled. Masa dia sampai, aku tgh betulkan tudung & selendang. Memula dah elok pakai tudung kaler jingga lembut,,pastu kwn2 mak aku semua disagree & suruh aku tukar tudung lain. I settled down wif a beige color tudung, which they gave thumbs up. Thanks to Juju, my bestfriend who was there to help me adorn my head wif tudung. Aku x pakai pon mak andam. I just applied make-up based on the techniques that I read in Cleo & other girlie stuffs (U never know when u need them most). The result was....incredible! Hikhik..bukan nak riak..but I'm pretty satisfied wif my make-up skills. Even my friends, family & my Hafez complimented the way I look. Kira save byk gak. Mak aku tetiba kata kawin nanti x pyh pakai mak andam...Gulp!
So, majlis pertunangan berlangsung dgn lancar, tanpa gangguan. Xde diskus pasal tarikh nak kawin, mas kawin or hantaran. Tu semua akan dibincang kemudian, just between my family & Hafez's. Pihak Hafez hantar 5 dulang hantaran & dibalas dgn 7 dulang from my side. Uncle dia siap berpantun lagi, while my uncle, Pak Anjang jadi spoke person. Later, barulah bakal mak mertua aku sarung cincin kat jari manis aku. Pheeww...I was relieved! I'm officially engaged! Aku pon salam mak dia, pastu salam wif all the female guests. Masa tu lom nampak Hafez..ntah mana dia duduk. Then, at one corner in my house, aku nampak dia berpakaian baju melayu putih lengkap bersampin & bersongkok duduk di situ, dgn muka yg paling sweet skali..heheh..God! He looked so cute! Pas salam ngan makcik2 dia, barulah aku dtg kat dia. We exchanged few words. Then all guest had lunch, but I was too happy that I didnt feel like to eat. Aku layan kwn2 yg dtg. After that, barulah ada sesi bergambar. Nearly blinded by the flashes. I got similar comments from my friends, that was, Hafez & I look alike. Alhamdulillah..kuat jodoh kata org2 tua. Apa yg sama? Hanya pada mata org yg memandang je yg tau. Rombongan Hafez balik around 2 something, but I asked him to wait for a while as I didnt have much time to spend with him. Masa tu barulah aku nak makan. Tapi kejap je dia teman coz he really had to go home since he came wif two friends. Bila semua guest da balik, aku pon layan la hantaran2. Actually, Hafez & I bought all the hantaran during the Mega Sale. Mmg berbaloi la jugak sbb dpt save few hundred RM.
I just pray that my jodoh wif Hafez will last forever, till death do us part. He's the best gift ever in my life, & I'm so in love wif him (really sappy I am).

No More Tears

Hey..I'm all right! I'm no longer feel sad as 12th August passes by. Shed no tears. Yup..those who hav read my previous entries would have came across wif an article about 12 Ogos 2004. It was the death anniversary of arwah NAS. On 12th August, I was at Melaka attending my ex housemate's wedding. I was totally forgotten about the anniversary. I only realised bout it the next day. I dont feel misreable like I used to. Although arwah was no longer around, I would still remember him forever. Memories about him still lingers in my mind. There's nothing much I can do except praying for him & hope that Allah would bless his soul. Amin!

Puisi Cinta

Ku semaikan benih kasih sayang
Agar cepat ia bercambah
Dan subur sepanjang masa

Ku takan cabut akar pengorbanan
Supaya berterusan tumbuh
Kukuh dan kuat hari ke hari

Ku belai pucuk kejujuran
Semoga senantiasa bertahan
Tak lapuk dek zaman

Ku sentuh dedaun kesetiaan
Pastikan tiada rosak dan cela
Dan tak mudah kelayuan

Ku cium bunga-bunga cinta
Biar mekar ke akhir hayat
Harum dan wangi kekal abadi

Tanpamu by Farawahida

I like this song, "Tanpamu" sung by Farawahida which is currently popular on air. It's a simple yet catchy & funky song. I find myself singing along whenever this song is played. Coincidently, my man loves this song too. It has become our theme song recently...

Terasa indah bila cinta telah bertemu,
Terasa syahdu bila hati telah bersatu,
Tak dapat ku mungkiri apa yang kurasakan,
Di saat-saat kita bersama..

Chorus:
Kau damaikan diri ini ,
Sejukkan dasar jiwaku,
Tenangkan resah hatiku..
Tanpamu ku rasa suramnya...
Tanpa cinta...
Oh..Tanpamu ku rasa resah dan gelisah...

Rap:Ku tunggu dikaulah pujangga
Lantas oh hatiku bergema...
Terfikirkanmu hingga malam terbit mentari..
Ekoran wajahmu menghiasi diri ini..

Terasa bosan bila ku harus sendiri,
Terasa bosan bila ku harus begini,
Tak dapat ku mungkiri sepi tanpa mu kasih,
Resahnya tanpa cinta mu kasih...

Chorus:
Kau damaikan diri ini ,
Sejukkan dasar jiwaku,
Tenangkan resah hatiku..

Tanpamu ku rasa suramnya...
Tanpa cinta...
Oh..Tanpamu ku rasa resah dan gelisah...

No love chemistry? Bye Bye!

Senang nak ungkapkan "I like you " or " I love you"
Tapi susah nak kotakan apa yg di ungkapkan itu
Bila semua dah tak betul, mulalah kata "we have no chemistry"
Macam-macam alasan & cerita diberi
Memula semuanya indah belaka
Sampai aku mula terpesona
Tapi bila kata kita tak serasi
Aku rasa jengkel & dikhianati
Memang aku mula membenci
Terasa pedih di ulu hati
Let me tell straight to your face
I hate u & plz go away

(Maaf ya kalian semua, gue ngak waras tika ini)

Bintang

Aku sudah capai bintang itu
Bintang itu bersinar
Ku genggam dgn erat
Tidak mau lepaskan
Namun sinarnya tidak kekal
Lalu ku campak bintang itu
Dan ia jatuh bertaburan
Dikit pun aku tak peduli
Kerna ada bintang lain
Disebalik langit nan tinggi
Dan pastinya bintang itu
Harus lebih bersinar & bercahaya
Melainkan jika sinarnya tak kekal jua

My blog - hidup segan mati x mau

Wow! Lama giler aku x update blog aku yg x glamer ni...aku admit mmg blog aku ni agak 'suram' dari segi graphics, layout & perhaps content. Bila tgk blog member2 lain,,terpegun seketika sbb diorang punya up-to-date, cantik & menarik. Aku punya ni takat static je..janji ada bende ngarut utk ditulis...
Sebenarnya aku anggap blog aku ni tmpt nak lepaskan perasaan..whatever yg terpendam dlm hati, aku dump kat blog ni...i used to write my own diary when I was in high school..dlm tu macam2 aku tulis,,drpd kisah secret crush aku sampailah aku gaduh ngan kawan..it was a love-hate affair written in my diary. I continued writting until my 2nd year at MMU. Then I stopped. Masa tu blog blom popular kat M'sia. Aku rasa malas nak berdiari lagi. Ntahlah...maybe coz I was busy as a U student.
Whatever it is, i'll try to learn how to upgrade my blog. Malu beb budak IT x pandai buat blog kan?? heheh..adios for now..........

Tragedi Bali

Marah! Sedih! Geram! Devastated! Shocked! Apalagi perasaan yg harus aku gambarkan apabila dapat tahu Bali sekali lagi menjadi sasaran suicide bombers & dipercayai angkara anggota JI sendiri yg didalangi oleh tak lain tak bukan rakyat M'sia, Dr Azahari & Nordin (most wanted men in Asia). JI dikenalpasti sbg suspek utama sbb masa tahun 2002 dulu, Sari Club di Kuta telah dibom oleh anggota JI sendiri. Aku mendapat berita ni dpd Gya, member aku yg menonton CNN Sabtu malam. Aku pulak sedang tgk final Selangor lawan Perlis kat tv. Bila dapat je berita ni,,aku trus SMS abang angkat aku kat Bali, Wayan to make sure that he was safe & sound. Thank God, Wayan slamat & dia kata masa bombing tu dia ada di sekitar area Kuta.
Aku dah almost 1 month balik from Bali. Masa aku pergi 7/9-11/9, ramai member aku suruh berhati2 sbb takut berlaku another bombing. Depa pesan jangan jalan2 kat area yg ramai mat saleh sbb suicide bombers suka letupkan diri kat situ. Memula aku pikir gak mende tu. What would happen if I was there & suddenly a suicide bomber blew up himself? Aku pasti tak mahu jadi mangsa di situ. Aku takleh bayangkan langsung! So, I told myself that, whatever happens in Bali, it's already decided my Allah SWT. I calmed myself & tried not to think anything terrible when I was in Bali. Alhamdulillah, sepanjang 5 hari disana, takde musibah pun berlaku. Aku dapat gak menjejakan kaki kat Kuta. Matahari shopping complex aku tak sempat nk shopping situ. Kat situ semua kedai2 yg up class..macam KLCC. Dapat gak pergi snorkeling & parasailing kat Nusa Dua (another bombing site). Cuma Jimbaran aku tak singgah masa tu.
Pasal suicide bombers ni, biarlah Allah SWT yg menentukan nasib mereka di akhirat. Mmglah aku marah bila ada nyawa yg x berdosa turut terkorban spt budak kecil & org Islam di Bali. Kalu betul JI ni nak berjihad ke jalan Allah SWT, kenapa x pergi je ke Israel yg dah sah2 kerajaan Yahudi menindas umat Islam Palestin disana? Aku kecewa ngan Dr Azahari, bekas pensyarah UTM yg dikatakan gifted & Maths genius. Org macam dia ni sgt diperlukan di M'sia utk mendidik pelajar universiti especially anak Melayu yg dahagakan role model. Tapi, agaknya Dr Azahari ni lebih berminat nak berjihad..mayb dia ada alasan tersendiri kenapa involve dlm JI. Kesian anak bini & keluarga dia.
Whatever it is, aku bersyukur sbb xde bombing berlaku sepanjang di Bali. Apa yg aku ingat, masa kat sana aku betul2 enjoy 100%. Tak ingat langsung kerja yg menunggu di KL & problem2 peribadi. Aku berserah pada Qada' & Qadar je. Insya-Allah, aku akan ke Bali lagi next year.

My Best Holiday Trip Ever----Bali!

Where have I been hiding these past few weeks??? Well, no where else but in Bali! Yup, I went for a 5d 4n holiday trip to this so called Island of Gods. I really cant believe that I finally reached to the shores of this mystical island, famed for its rich Hindu culture & heritage. Every sights are filled with Hindu architecture with statues, puras (temples) & also Balinese drapped in traditional costume. We were lucky enough that we managed to witness several rituals except the cremation ceremony..*sighs*. Balinese folks are so nice & they treated us like kings & queens.
We eagerly booked Air Asia 4 months prior to our lustful holiday. We counted every single minute, day by day, week by week till 7th Sept came. My mind was so full of preparation for this trip coz I wanted to make it the most memorable holiday ever.
There was a bit misunderstanding at KLIA b4 our flight where Ila & Gya were detained due to Air Asia online ticketing error (human error? database error?). The other 6 of us were told to board the flight without them...pity Ila & Gya. However they managed to get the next flight plus RM50 for penalty after a concerned & understanding manager intervened the matter.
So, 6 of us flown over to Bali & arrived at Ngurah Rai Int Airport after a short 3 hrs flight. We were greeted by our van driver,Wayan at the airport (I knew Wayan from my cousin, Ejan who frequently fly to Bali). Dont be surprised if 10 Balinese said their name are Wayan. Actually, Balineses are called by their surnames. If they r 1st born child, they r called Wayan. 2nd child r called Made, 3rd child r called Komang /Nyoman & the 4th child r called Ketut. If there r ever 5th, 6th & so on children in the family, they will carry the same name in repetition as their elderlies. Thats mean, if there r 9 children in a family, there should b 3 Wayans, 2 Mades & 2 Komangs & 2 Ketuts...get it?
Our 1st day in Bali was just a short sight seeing along Denpasar town. Wayan acted as our tourist guide & he drove us to a Restoran Sederhana, a halal Padang food. We were mad hungry & ate like never had it before. The uniqueness of Padang food is that, all dishes r served on the table till there's no space left. So many varieties & we can choose any dish that we want to. Around 8pm, Ila & Gya arrived & we hurriedly headed to Kintamani.
Below r my Bali trip journal throughout 5d 4n stay:-

7/9/05 (Wed)
10.55-Flight take off from KLIA
13.55 -Arrival at Ngurah Rai Int Airport
14.30-Checked out from airport. Met Wayan & headed for lunch & sight seeing in Denpasar
18.00-Get Ila & Gya at airport. Stopped at several supermarket. Then straigt to Kintamani.
20.45-Arrived at Kintamani, a mountaineous village famed for the sleeping volcanic Mt Batur.

8/9/05 (Thurs)
00.30-Zzzzzz(cant sleep at all coz too cold!)
03.00-Wake up! Ready for mount climbing. (Too drowsy but I forced myself to wake up)
04.00-Started to climb Mt Batur wit the help from Mt Batur hikers association.
06.00-Arrived at the 2nd highest peak of Mt Batur (the best we could do). Watched the beautiful sunrise emerging. Snapped pics & recorded the panaromic sunrise.
09.30-Began to descend from Mt Batur. Less challenging path.
11.45-Arrived Lakeview hotel. Showered & packed clothing.
13.30-Checked out from hotel. Dropped by at Tirta Empul pura. Scenic temple with souveneir stalls around. Then headed to Tegalalang, a cascading paddy field.
18.00-Arrived at Ubud town. Checked in at Dewi Ayu hotel. Took a walk around the hotel area as there are many shops, spas & restaurants.
23.30- Lights off..............

9/9/05 (Fri)
07.00 -Woke up & get ready for white water rafting at Telaga Waja. Had delicious banana pancake for breakfast.
10.30-Splash! Me, Gya, Izah & Ila had a great time rafting in the rapid river. The local guides were sporting lot.
16.45-Went back to hotel. Rested for a while. Gya & I went for a walk around Monkey Forest street. Bought souveniers & stuffs. Izah & Ila went cycling. Beyzu, Lin, Pin & Mashy went for rafting.
23.00-Zzzz..physically & mentally exhausted.

10/9/05 (Sat)
07.00- Getting ready for cycling around Pasar Ubud area wit Gya. Separated wit other girls as they had other plans. (We shopped till we dropped!)
11.30-Packed clothing, getting ready for Uluwatu. Checked in our last hotel in Kuta.
14.30-Arrived at Uluwatu, famous for temples & restless monkeys. Very spectacular view from the top of the cliff. Watch out for ur belongings as the monkeys are trained to snatch anything from u..Pity Ila, her glasses were twice snatched by a monkey.
18.00- The moment finally came, Kecak dance performance during sunset. Very an eye opener & fun.
20.00-Show ended & we headed to our hotel.
23.00- Lights off.

11/9/05 (Sun)
07.00- *sigh* last day in Bali. Getting ready for beach activities.
09.30-Went for snorkeling (I was a nervous wreck,,stayed underwater for barely 10 mins then I freaked out!). Boat cruising to Pulau Penyu, a mini animal sanctuary. Then went back to the beach for parasailing (cool!)
14.45-Arrived at hotel. Showered & packed everything. By 16.00 we were out of Surfaris Inn. Headed to our last destination, Kuta town! Last minute shopping.
16.45- Arrived at Ngurah Rai. Bid farewell to Wayan. So sad!
20.10- Bye bye Bali! (total emotional as the plane took off)
23.00-Arrived at KL 10 min earlier...welcome back to the reality!

So..that was it..the next day, I went to work a bit late. But my mind was still in Bali. I had post holiday depression on Monday. Dunno why but holidaying in Bali had left a big impact in my life. I fell in love with Bali (perhaps a Balinese?) . Not to mention the idyllic & picturesque places of interest. I just cant wait to go back next year, with this time more adventures & shopping revenge! To Izah, Ila, Gya, Pin, Beyzu & Lin..hope we could get together for another episode of holidaying in Bali next yr!

p/s: picture taken at Uluwatu

12 Ogos 2004

12 Ogos 2004. Tarikh yg takan aku lupakan sampai bila2. Sesuatu yg amat meninggalkan kesan dalam hati aku berlaku pada tarikh tersebut. Aku tak tahu bagaimana nak menghadapi tarikh yg bakal kunjung tiba itu. Adakah aku akan menjadi seperti biasa? Adakah aku akan bertukar menjadi org lain? Adakah aku akan gembira, sedih atau tiada berperasaan langsung? Aku sendiri tak pasti. Aku cuma berharap aku dapat menjalani hidup seperti biasa pada 12 Ogos ini. Aku perlu kuatkan semangat, tabahkan hati, dan berfikiran positif. Perlu aku ingatkan diri ini bahawa tiada apa yg perlu aku risaukan atau kenangkan.

12 Ogos 2004. Aku telah kehilangan seorang teman. Kehilangan yg hakiki. Arwah N.A.S meninggalkan aku buat selama-lamanya utk menghadapi penciptaNya. Aku sedar arwah adalah hak mutlak Tuhan. Dia dipinjamkan kedunia utk sementara. Semua manusia begitu. Dipinjamkan ke dunia utk menjalani hidup yg penuh fantasi. Aku sempat bercinta dgn arwah selama setahun lebih. Tetapi jodoh kami tak panjang. Kami putus cinta. Dia membawa diri. Aku meneruskan hidup walaupun pahit utk ditelan. Beberapa bulan kemudian, terdetik utk aku menghubungi dia utk bertanyakan khabar. Kami sempat berbual walaupun sekejap. Jauh di lubuk hati aku amat merindui dia dan berharap utk menjalinkan semula hubungan yg kian lama terputus.

Tetapi sbg manusia, kita tidak boleh melawan takdirNya. Seminggu selepas kami berhubung, arwah telah dipanggil utk menghadapNya. Dia meninggal dunia akibat kemalangan jalan raya. Gelap duniaku pabila menerima berita buruk drpd ibuku. Aku bagaikana tak percaya kerana baru seminggu yg lepas aku mendengar suaranya. Aku terkedu. Blank. Aku terus menelefon handphonenya. Beberapa kali aku dial tetapi tiada sesiapa menjawab. Aku terus menangis dan menangis. Aku tak tau berapa lama aku menangis. Malam itu aku x dpt tido. Aku terkenangkan dia. Aku teringatkan arwah. Memori kami bersama berlegar2 dlm fikiranku. Aku berasa hidupku tak bermakna. Hari2 seterusnya aku hadapi dgn penuh kesedihan. Kemana2 aku pergi, aku terbayangkan wajah arwah. Aku cium, peluk baju arwah yg mamanya berikan padaku. Pendek kata, hidup aku mmg gelap dan penuh kedukaan.

Alhamdulillah. Aku bersyukur dilahirkan sbg Islam. Mempunyai asas agama yg kuat dan mampu menilai kehidupan. Aku pulihkan semangat utk terus hidup. Segala memori bersama arwah telah aku simpan dalam kotak kenangan. Mungkin mustahil utk membuang kotak itu, tapi aku cuba sedaya upaya utk meneruskan kehidupan tanpa dibayangi arwah. Berkat doa ibubapa dan kawan2, aku dapat keluarkan diri aku dr lembah kesedihan. Hanya doa yg mampu aku hadiahkan kepada arwah. 12 Ogos ini genap setahun arwah N.A.S pergi. Sungguhpun arwah sudah tiada, aku akan sentiasa mengenangkan dia sbg insan yg pernah mencuri hatiku suatu ketika dulu. Al-Fatihah buat arwah. Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya.

A poem for myself

I can fly
I can swim
When u'r gone
In my dreams

I feel strong
I feel great
When u'r down
And in pain

I see light
I see hope
When u'r lost
Weak and broke

Even if u'r haunting me

I tell myself not to worry